It's an old habit, believing this particular lie. In a peculiar way, it brings a brand of comfort that I strangely miss when I'm disbelieving it, the old lie that I'm alone. That's the way old habits fit, you know. Like an old sweater, worn and familiar, even if they don't fit so well anymore. … Continue reading lest i lose it
lest i close them
"...the only difference was that I was able to see it more clearly, and to wonder at it." -Wendell Berry Lord, help me in my unbelief.
the re-creating spaces
"Rest is worship," He tells me. Rest is worship. It's me saying, "I'm human, I can't do it all, and I'm not going to try to defy my limitations. I'm going to admit that I'm human and I need to rest." I'm human, and I'm going to admit that I need re-creation daily. I'm human. … Continue reading the re-creating spaces
Seeing
I don't want to see anymore. It is too much. I want to unsee. Make me blind again. I don't know how to live this way. Why did You teach me to ask for eyes to see when You knew it would hurt like this? Why do You keep making me see? I do not … Continue reading Seeing
The Commencement Speech
My dear People! My dear Bagginses* and Boffins, and my dear Tooks and Brandybucks, and Grubbs, and Chubbs, and Burrowses, and Hornblowers, and Bolgers, Bracegirdles, Goodbodies, Brockhouses and Proudfoots. [*I have changed the students' surnames back to those used in the novel.] [Student shouts correct pronunciation] Proudfoots. And all the rest that I welcome here today! … Continue reading The Commencement Speech
Born into Life There Instead of Here
One of the hardest journeys a parent can take is that of their unborn child’s death. I know this road firsthand. The despair and the grief that sucks the very will to live out of you. The cowering fear that gnaws. The rage and bitterness that burn like gall in the throat. The numbness. The … Continue reading Born into Life There Instead of Here
Living Rooted in Identity: Years That Run Long
Today’s Reading: Philippians 1 Remember, Self, that just because you haven’t completely learned how to live in this new habit – this new raiment – just yet, doesn’t mean you aren’t learning, bit by bit, to live newly. Yes, it’s awfully easy to get discouraged when it seems like you aren’t living any better today … Continue reading Living Rooted in Identity: Years That Run Long
